Thursday, April 16, 2020

COVID-19: DAY 31 SHELTER IN PLACE APR 16 2020

Everyone at home is healthy.  Everyone at home is bored.  But we all know how important it is to stay home and prevent this disease from spreading.  

Easter was very different from what we have been used to.  Our family usually goes on a trip for Easter as it was also Michelle's spring break from school.  But we stayed home this time, attended church online, cooked and baked a cake for our dog, Ash, who was also celebrating his 5th birthday.  He doesn't care about the food.  What he really wanted to do was walk off leash at Fort Funston and dispense all his energy but Fort Funston is closed. All dog parks are closed. 



I'm going to try to be productive today.  Make pie crust, clean the kitchen, go to home depot and get some gardening supplies. 

What books have you read during this lock down?  I started another Jeff Wheeler series.  If you haven't read any of his books and if you are into fantasy (think Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings), I think you will enjoy it.  

Thursday, April 09, 2020

COVID-19: DAY 24 SHELTER IN PLACE APR 9 2020

Last night, my little family prayed and talked about Passover.

We are not Jews, but Passover has never felt more important to me than it did last night.  We prayed for the blood of the Lamb to cover our family, for the spirit of sickness and death to pass over our home.  We thanked the Lord for all that we have.  

We told Michelle, she will always be blessed more than she needs and because of that she has to always find a way to be a blessing to other people.  Now, more than ever, as we see families we know who are struggling in this health and economic crisis, and we have to do our part to help.  Together, we will overcome the new challenges we face.  

Monday, April 06, 2020

COVID-19: DAY 21 SHELTER IN PLACE APR 6 2020





I think I finally realized the root of my sadness during this pandemic.  It is not being made to stay home (I like staying home).  It is not about missing the people I love who do not live in the same house as I do.  What truly breaks my heart is seeing posts from people I know, many of them Christians like me, that encourage people to be silent, to 'stop complaining' about the lock down or the lack of preparedness the government has shown throughout this pandemic.  They want people to SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Yup.  I said it.  

"Stop complaining.  Just follow the rules and pray for our leaders.  It is for our own good."  Fuck that shit.  They can easily say that because none of them wake up in the morning and wonder about where their next meal will be coming from.  None of them wake up and go to work and have to decide which of their patients deserve that last ventilator at the hospital.  Their statements come from a place of privilege, totally disconnected from the reality that it is not only the COVID 19 patients who are suffering.  More people will suffer from the lasting mental and economic impact this will have on the world.

I am not saying they don't care.  I know these people have good hearts but what upsets me is that because something does not directly affect them, then they won't advocate for it.  Isn't that completely against what the Bible has called Christians to do?  Isn't that being selfish?  They all hide behind the verse about praying for our leaders, as if you can't pray for your leaders and tell them when they are failing miserably at their jobs.  If nobody tells them they are doing something wrong, then how will they know to do a better job? 

Leader: Do you think I am making the right decision?
Christian: Aaah, I will just pray for you. I will just support you decision, because that is was good Christians do, we like to follow the leader, you know? 
Leader:  You mean, you don't know if what I am doing is right or wrong?
Christian: I know if it is right or wrong.  I went to school and highly educated and I read the Bible from Genesis to Revelation many times throughout my life. I know a lot of things, but I am not going to tell you what I think. It's not important what I think but I should just pray for you and the government.  
Leader: So you can't have an opinion? 
Christian: My opinion is I have to pray for my leaders and not complain.     

Will not God use us?  If enough of us speak up for those who can't speak for themselves, I think the leaders will finally listen.  Sure, prayer is our number 1 weapon.  But it is not our only weapon.  We can see, we can hear, we can feel when something is wrong.  We can't just sit around as if the only action we can take is to pray.  Again I am not making light of the power of prayer but is not the only weapon in the artillery.  God has called us to love others as we love ourselves, so if we advocate for ourselves, shouldn't we advocate for others?

Saturday, April 04, 2020

COVID-19: DAY 19 SHELTER IN PLACE APR 4 2020

I am feeling much better today!  Whew!  I was worried that I will slide down the slippery slope of sadness.  After I cried to my husband last night and told him my fears and frustrations, I felt better.  Thank the Lord for my husband!  Also, he did not work today, so I was able to spend time with him. We even ran errands together!  Running errands feel like date night now.  Oh how times have changed!  We wanted to go for a nice drive but the weather wasn't really cooperating so we decided to just head home after our exciting trip to the post office and to my cousins house for some extra gloves.  

When Michelle and I went to the market on Thursday, we had a list on hand to buy the things we needed for the house.  I really wanted to cook our favorite Peruvian dish, Pescado alo Macho.  Its fried Branzino with a seafood cream sauce and we always order this at the local Peruvian restaurant not far from our home.  I have never seen Branzino at the Asian market so I was to replace it with Baramundi, also from the sea bass family.  As I was walking along the fresh fish section, the Branzino caught my eye!  I should have bought more of this fish since this is a family favorite.  But I don't want to buy more than I need (no hoarding!) so I just bought 2 of the fish.  It was a big hit for the family and already shared the recipe with my cousins and friends.    



Pescado alo Macho Recipe:

2 Whole Branzino, cleaned, salted to taste, dust it with a little flour, deep fry

Sauce:
Half a pound of Mussels (half shell) 
1 pound of Clams
Half a pound of Shrimp
1/3 cup of water
1/4 cup Cream
2 ounces dry white wine
Onions, chopped
Garlic, minced
Bell peppers, diced
1/3 cup frozen peas
2 tablespoons of olive oil
Salt and pepper to taste

Directions:
Heat your oil in a pan, saute your onions until translucent about 3 minutes.  Add the garlic, clams, mussels, shrimp and water.  Cover and bring it to a simmer.   Clamshell will open once cooked.  Stir and add the wine, bell peppers and green peas and simmer for 3 minutes.  Add salt and pepper to taste.  

Plate your fried fish and pour your sauce over the fish.  Best eaten with white rice.  Enjoy!

Friday, April 03, 2020

COVID-19: DAY 18 SHELTER IN PLACE APR 3 2020

The first thing I saw this morning was an article shared to me by my best friend.  It was an article about a particular Chinese restaurant at Davis, the one I frequented when I was in college.  Ding How.



I would eat here at least once a week, usually on Fridays with my dad, who picked me up to go home to the Bay Area on weekends.  My dad loved how a big platter of food with chow mein, fried rice, an egg roll, and your main dish was only $7.  You have soup before your meal and fruit afterwards, too.  We would each order a lunch special and have food left over to take home to mom.  Ding how had the best hot and sour soup and Fisherman's soup.  I loved their prawns in lobster sauce and their 'happy family'.  I remember during my freshman year while I lived in the dorms, I would ride my bike and order a whole roasted chicken with the sauce on the side and I will eat that whole chicken all week, reheating it in my dorm room microwave.  

My best friends also learned to love this place throughout my 4 years at UC Davis.  We would have dinner here whenever they dropped me off on Sunday nights.  The food was consistently good and inexpensive.  Perfect for broke college students like us. Even after college, I would bring my husband and daughter here, a dinner stop after snowboarding in Tahoe.  

Like a COVID-19 patient on life support, Ding How is also struggling to survive. This disease has wrecked lives and livelihoods.  I pray that they will find a way to stay open and continue to serve the community for many more years.  I pray this not only for Ding How, but all the small businesses that do the best they can to serve their communities.

Today I cried to my husband, all the pent up sadness and frustration I have been feeling these past several weeks.  The mind and heart is more fragile than the rest of the body.  While my body has stayed strong, I am struggling with emotions that have been hard to shake off.  I am hardly working, there is not enough work.  I have two employees in Manila and one here in California.  The employee in California, I have laid off for now.  She will be receiving unemployment and has her family to provide for her needs.  But my Manila team, they are the only ones in their family currently working.  If I lay them off, there will no longer be a source of income for their families.  So instead of me doing the work, I have them do it.  The unemployment checks I receive, I will use to pay for their wage.  I am thankful the Lord has blessed my husband's career and he is able to provide for our family, even if our business is not able to earn at the moment.    

The situation in the Philippines has left me heart broken.  A third world country, desperately trying to ward off this hideous, microscopic enemy.  The poorest of people have no means of earning a living will the whole metropolis on lockdown.  Cities and towns in provinces across the country have a similar ordinance in place as well.  Local governments have given out food rations:  5 kilograms of rice, 2 cans of sardines, 2 packs of instant ramen, a small bottle of hand sanitizer.  How can a family survive on these rations?  There are news of families getting between P5,000 and P8,000, but it varies depending on where you live.  Because of this variation, I am 100% sure, without a doubt, local politicians will line their pockets with the money that was supposed to go to the public.  Why can't the government announce that each family gets X amount of food rations every X number of days, and each family gets X amount in cash.  Then say, 'If you get any less than this, your local government is robbing you of the help you are entitled to receive!' But of course they would never announce anything like that.  Corruption starts from the lowest government position all the way to the very top.  No one is spared.  NO ONE. Isn't it sad that while the people are starving, these greedy m*f* still think about stealing from the people?  

It is true.  You test a person's character with power and money, unfortunately for the Philippines, everyone in government has failed this test.  

Thursday, April 02, 2020

COVID-19: Day 17 Shelter in place Apr 2 2020

I didn't realize, being in a home full of people, even the people I love the most, can be so lonely.

It is day 17 of our shelter in place order and today was such a sad day.  It was somewhat productive.  I was able to shop for groceries, exercise a little bit and learn a little bit of German, but I had no will to work on my project.  I just wanted to sit and do nothing.  I felt terrible and felt guilty especially when I see my husband working 12 hour days, his income being the only source of income for our family for now.  But I felt like I needed to just be sad today and let it pass.  I hope it passes very soon.

I don't know how hard other people are taking this situation.  Don't get me wrong, I am not taking everything I have for granted, I know I am blessed beyond measure.  This whole situation is sad. I am sad.  


Tuesday, March 31, 2020

COVID-19: Day 15 Shelter in place March 31 2020

We now have about 180,000 cases of COVID 19 here in the United States.  The president's hope of opening the economy and the country by Easter has been replaced with the projection that we will hit our peak in two weeks.  

I have been outside only a few times during these last two weeks.  I really don't want to catch and spread this virus so we are doing everything we can to protect ourselves.  I was supposed to go to the post office today, but I decided against it and went to the mailbox instead.  

My biggest struggle right now is parenting.  Michelle is 13 years old and I do not know if I am properly handling this "pandemic parenting".  She is on 'spring break' right now, so no online classes.  She is in her room pretty much all day, watching Netflix, Youtube or making Tiktok videos.  We watched Knives Out last night, an effort to do something together as a family.  We really enjoyed the movie.  I asked her today if she wanted to watch any more movies but she shrugged and said,'I don't know, Mom.'  She does not enjoy reading, another thing she inherited from her father. We tried to play board games but none of us are really into it so we ended that quickly.  I teach her how to cook, she still walks the dog, but I feel like we are not interacting enough. *sigh* She is a good kid.  I know she is, but I don't know what kind of lasting effect being locked down inside the home for weeks on end to anyone's mind.  I am starting to get restless myself!

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