COVID-19: DAY 52 SHELTER IN PLACE MAY 7 2020

The month of April was like a blink of an eye.  Now, we are in my birth month, this was supposed to be a big deal for me.  I am turning 40 in a couple of weeks and I was looking forward to my dream destination, Morocco.  Of course the trip has been cancelled.  I've read articles that say international travel won't resume until 2021 so I have changed my 2020 travel bucket list to just having a picnic by the beach on a beautiful California day.

I do pray that the last 52 days, with all it's challenges and seemingly unending bad news coming from all over the place, that you have learned things about yourself that you wouldn't otherwise learn.  Me, I learned all the more that I can live with less.  Over the last couple of years, I have really minimized my clothes, shoes, and bag shopping.  The last new t shirt I bought for myself was in December 2018.  I have bought a couple of pairs of pants that replaced worn, ripped (in the wrong places), unusable pants.  I still find myself looking at a lot of expensive purses and watches, but never had the courage to splurge.  I have heard a lot of people say, 'You deserve it for all the hard work you do.' I try to not to think I deserve anything.  All the I have is unmerited favor from the Lord.  I don't want to think I deserve anything.  

I learned how therapeutic cooking is for me.  When I feel the lowest, I turn to cooking and it cheers me up, even more so when I see the satisfied faces of my family who appreciate what I had just prepared.  

I learned, I really, really, really, don't like walking.  But I do, sometimes, because the dog drives me to guilt with those sad puppy dog eyes, begging to be taken for a walk around the neighborhood.

I learned, I really need to pray more, read the bible more, and hear Him more.  I don't know what happened to me, but the last couple of years, I just wasn't the same in my spiritual journey.  I will do my best to rekindle my relationship with the Lord.