trying out these writing prompts

i miss writing...so much!  this blog was never an outlet for my creative juices...i'm not really a creative writer...i just like to write.  i like essays and non-fiction.  i know i'm very rusty, but i plan on writing again, and writing better. 

so here's the first crack at this thing i downloaded, writing prompts:

Day 1
Breaking Up With Writer’s Block
It’s time for you and Writer’s Block to part ways. Write a letter breaking up with Writer’s
Block, starting out with, “Dear Writer’s Block, it’s not you, it’s me …”


Dear Writer's Block, it's not you, it's me.  I have been utterly lazy and spent too much time wallowing in misery. Yes, I have been miserable these last few years.  That's actually something I have not admitted to anyone but you.  Yes, I have been miserable.  Not to the point of depression but to the point of indifference, which, might be worse.  I felt like I gave up on many things and lost the will and the fire that I used to have inside me. 

I don't want to get too personal and bore you with my life's drama.  It has been a challenging 3 years but I have vowed to bounce back and get that spring in my step and that zest for life that I used to have.  It's coming back, slowly but surely. 

I told you I was rusty.  My sentences are short and ill-constructed.  By the time I get to the end of these writing prompts, I am optimistic that my writing will be fluid and my sentences well-constructed. 

I have to say goodbye, Writer's Block.  Don't take it personally, but I hope to never see you again. 

saw my rheummy today

I got scolded by my doctor today.  =(

My Rheumatoid Arthritis has progressed because I am not taking my medications correctly and I have not seen my doctor in a year.  It's really not what I wanted to hear but I'm tired to seeing doctors and getting poked for blood tests.

But unfortunately for me, what I have done (naturally) had a negative effect on my body.  =(  

I feel terrible physically and emotionally.  I have not cried about having RA for a long time but now is one of those moments when the realization of this disease hits hard.  

I'm exhausted.  I am tired of feeling tired. I know my doctor means well, but he doesn't have RA so he may have the wisdom to help me get better control of this disease but he does not feel what we feel- the pain, the brain fog, the exhaustion, the frustration...

*sigh*

things will get better.  it always does.